Owning Your Weight

My husband often talks about owning your weight and how it's the first step to shedding it, so here we are.

108.6 kgs – The lucky (or rather, unlucky) number. 

That is the blatantly honest figure I'm faced with when I step on those dreaded scales.

108.6 kg….108 600 g…239.4 lb….17.1 st. No matter what conversion is used or whether I translate it to Samoan or Chinese, it is what it is. Fancying up the colours and font will do little to change the physical outcome.

I’m not ashamed of the number, which is why I don’t mind sharing it. 

I’m ashamed of the weight.

It has never made sense to me that some people might be hesitant to reveal their weight to others. I'm not saying they should be forced into feeling comfortable to do so. I just personally can't relate.

It’s not as if it changes the way people are perceived. For me, it’s just a number. I mean….. I look the way I look because of my body type and sharing the actual numerical figure isn’t going to make me appear any skinnier or fatter. 

Some people look bigger than what they actually weigh, and others look smaller.

If it made me seem thinner to change the figure by either adding or subtracting a few kilos (ok, maybe more than just a few), then by all means I would share that ideal number to complete the illusion. 

But no matter what lies I tell myself or others, the scales do the presenting, the weight calculations do the interpreting, and my body does the parading.       
      

There’s no hiding from it. The input of all the relevant data into the "BMI Healthy Weight Calculator" (There are better sites that offer more accurate results, taking into consideration a greater amount of data - Age, height, weight, sex, diet and exercise etc), all point to one undeniable truth.   

Hi, my name is Sian Mariana Chou Lee. I am 24 years old, and I am overweight.

This changes NOW!

(Mentally :) Gottta wait the required 5 weeks before I can safely exercise. Doctors orders)